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as much as i have to grow up, i still want to be a kid. i want to play all day and enjoy doing the things i love doing..

but ive realized now more than ever..

the life that my mom has led for the past 49 years has been hard. hard is an understandment. she has been through more than anyone could have handled in twenty lifetimes within those 49 years. she has and still does carry herself with a sense of confidence, grace and optimism that i am in awe of till this day. thinking about the trials that she has been through inspires me to try harder and challenges me to become a better person. i realize that i am nothing without her more and more everyday. she works harder than before and lives life working as if she were twenty years old again. as i sit here, thinking about my life, ive done nothing but complain and whine. its time to step it up.. she deserves better and its up to me to put an end to the ever growing need for financial stability in my family.

she has been nothing but..

amazing.